So I’ve been abset for a bit and not that I have a regular supply of lot of readers, I do like to check in from time to time because for me this is how I communicate with friends afar and its a way for me to do some writing that is not motivated by publishing, teaching, scholarly pursuits, or that is gonna get pages upon pages of feedback.
Well, its because of all that other writing, not to mention the reading that drives that writing that I’ve been absent from this blog. I just recently started to keep a *note* blog for my coursework. I’m hoping it’ll be useful as I move towards exams so that I can easily find notes (with tags and categories) not to mention the fact that you can export and back your stuff up and I’m prayfully hopeful that wordpress won’t ever crash…i’m trusting their servers with my scholarly stuff! well, i am also obsessive so i print out every post as well. heheheh 🙂
Yeah, so the past few weeks have been filled with lots of work. I’m taking 2 courses, teaching, and have been trying to figure out what (if anything) I’ve written so far can be publishable stuff as well as submitting abstracts to conferences, trying to plan travel, planning exam lists that seem to change *daily*, and learning my way around departmental politics.
So, on top of that there’s the personal stuff as well. Babe is now almost 2.5 and that has brought a whole host of changes, a few tantrums here and there, a swoosh of emotion that sometimes seems to come out of no where (and along with this, the ability to name her feelings, but not explain them), lots of words, sometimes a struggle to get them all out that makes her ever so frustrated, the ability to pick her own clothes out of her closet and drawer, an appetite that varies by the hour (sometimes we love cereal, other times its so yuck), a new not-wanting to go to bed (bed is “so yuck”) and still a deep yearning on her part to want to be held, “hold me so tight!”
Then there is of course the economy, a constant worry about money, dental work that set me back a grand, just a general dislike of grad-school-state, and the daily stressors of feeling those stressors.
I texted my cousin the other day and we were talking about how low we had both been feeling and I don’t know what it is. We both agreed that we’ve been through far worse-and believe me I don’t want to go back to feeling that sadness we had in 2006, but its just….well, to use babe’s words “so yuck.”